Well, prom is this Friday. And yes, I'm going with Jesse. Pretty excited. :)
Got a different dress though. Much cheaper.

I found out, like, yesterday that David doesn't have a date to prom. So he's probably not going. Seriously a pity. If I had only known. Whatever. I'll have fun with Jesse.

David's always tossing me around. You know, emotionally? I mean, it's always like, this on and off thing. One moment, we're hitting it off, the next we're both ignoring eachother. I dunno. On my side, I guess I'm a bit nervous around him and don't want him to think I like like him. Even though I do. :P

Well, whatever. Last week, Thursday, there were auditions for the show choir for next year, Steam Heat. I tried out. And I made it. But anyhow, while I was practicing, David came out to watch me. And naturally, I got all embarrassed. I mean, I was dancing. And he was watching me. So I go like, "Oh come on, you know that dancing isn't my forte." And he goes, "No, no! You dance better than I do, and you look sexy too." Oh man. He made my day so much better.

And then the following evening, it was the Becker Gala. He had his arms around me and everything. I had a great week last week.

But then, I think he likes Kate Nagle. He's always following her or something like that. Or finding some way to be next to her. Obviously, I'm jealous. But the point is that, well, it's confusing. It reminds me of Invisible Man. Yeah, how he's boomeranged around and all. Ugh. Ok, no more ties from real life to that book. Anyhow, he knows I like him. I'm sure he does. But if he doesn't feel the same way, I'd wish he'd show it. Playing games just gets... I dunno, whatever.

I got my prom dress yesterday. It's a pink strapless gown kind of thing. Kinda pouffy but not too much. I'm fairly excited. I mean, I'm not much for dances so I've never been to one. But I'm thinking that it'll be fun.

Now... if I can only get around to asking Jesse.

Heh, I better get around to it before it's too late. And I kinda have to ask him now since I got my dress already and everything. It really didn't occur to me that I'd have to ask him since I got the dress. But then Jessica mentions it and I'm like 'oh... errr... what?' Got really flustered. I shouldn't be this anxious about it. I mean, I'm only going to be asking him to go with me as friends. But I just...

Then I get to thinking about what people will be saying or what they'll be thinking. Or if he gets the wrong idea. Then I wish that Kevin was down here cause then I wouldn't have to worry about who I'm going with and all.

I think I'm gonna try calling Jesse today. Heh, watch me be practicing what I'm going to say all day until then. What if he says no? Hrm. Well, I guess I have a back up. I could ask Richard. But being a family friend and all. Or Jessica could set me up with someone else. She said she could set me up with one of her friends from another school. But I'm kinda wary about all that. Well, Julia said she was almost 100% sure that he'd say yes and be really excited and stuff. I shouldn't have much to worry about. Oh, yeah, his older sister knows. Word gets around SO quickly around here. Or maybe that's just because of Natalie's big mouth. Whatever. I'm kinda happy that Julia knows. I was kinda wondering how weird that would be if she just found out from her brother or whatever. Ahhh, feeling way nervous about asking Jesse again.

Emily Purcell knows too. She goes to school with him. At this rate he'll find out before I even ask him.

You know, I wonder if David will ever notice me. Well, actually, he probably has but it's always when I'm not interested. As much as during drama, anyways. Also, he's very shy around girls. Surprised? Yeah, he doesn't seem like it. But he is. I can tell.

I wonder when Jesse gets home. I wish I knew his email. I do better with email than I do with the phone. Gah. Whatever.

Today is Kevin's birthday. I can't do anything for him. Well, that makes me feel rather helpless and pathetic.

That and I forgot that it was his birthday. I knew like five days ago. Forgot. Remembered. Then forgot again.
Woops.

Barely had enough time to send an email. Gah.

Enh. Prom is coming up. I kinda want to go.

Everybody is taken and I don't want to go alone when everybody else has a date. See, I'm not much for dances. Then I realized that maybe I'd like to go to this dance since alot of the seniors will be there. I'm good friends with alot of seniors this year, you know. Last year, it was enh. But by the time I found that I kinda wanted to go, alot of my guy friends are already going with someone else. So can't ask them to come with me as friends. That's even if I get the nerve up. I'm old-fashioned in that sense I guess. I don't want to ask a guy out or to a dance even as friends. It just feels wrong to me, I guess. Plus, I get super self-conscious. Whatever.

Saw Guys & Dolls Saturday. Little reunion with people I knew from elementary and middle school. That was cool. Jesse, Julia Galef's little brother, was there too. Natalie suggested I ask him to go to prom with me as friends. I had been thinking about that. I dunno still. He's cute and pretty nice. Dunno. Maybe. Heh, let's see if I'll get the chance to. THEN I'll worry about getting up the nerve.